Saturday 17 September 2011

Scrapbooking

We fly to the States on 7 October. Hope will be induced on 9 October if she hasn't arrived before. I have our bags packed - or nearly packed - in the hall. I'm wandering around the place feeling panicky, tearful and excited. I wish I could enjoy all this more. Everyone keeps saying to me, 'Isn't this so exciting?' But I just can't enter into the whole thing as I should. I suppose the truth is that this is a pregnancy which follows a stillbirth and so excitement and joy perhaps just aren't really possible. I'm scared. I'm really scared. But we're getting through the days. Last night Thomas and I started making a big album of photographs and messages which is for our amazing surrogate Mum. We're decorating it with pretty papers and stickers and flowers. I'm pretty pleased with the way that it looks. Although in reality, I think that this whole album / scrap book business is really more for the under tens, right now it is the level of activity that my brain can manage.

3 comments:

Jeannette said...

Funny - I must have logged into my reader just as you posted this. Really happy for you Alice.

Tash said...

I can't believe it's that close. I wish I was closer to MN, I would be there in a heartbeat -- with a sticker page for your book. I happen to think that's really sweet.

Try and keep us posted!

Anonymous said...

I'll be thinking of you as you make this next step on your journey. The scrapbook seems like a really good idea.
Lucy