Tuesday, 7 June 2011

Scan photos

Our surrogate Mum had her twenty week scan and everything seems to be fine. Or more or less. Apparently they couldn't scan her heart properly as she wasn't positioned at the right angle. So our surrogate Mum has to go back for another scan. I'm assured that this isn't a problem and I'm managing to believe that most the time! We have also been sent scan photos. My husband has looked at them and he could definitely see a face, a nose, a chin. He was thrilled. I have to say that I haven't looked yet. I just can't. I promised myself after the second miscarriage that I'd never look at one of those scan photos again. I know that it is time to ditch that promise but I just can't do it for the moment. The time will come, I'm sure. The problem is that once I see Hope then I'll know just how much I have to lose. That makes it sound as though I'm in a really morbid frame of mind - but I'm not. I'm generally fine. But I just find scan photos difficult.


Tash said...

Ohmygoodness, I hear you. I think Niobe threw hers away (Niobe are you there?). I hated scans, I felt like, what's the point? Who cares if the baby is here and "looks healthy" today? What about TOMORROW? or his DUE DATE? HMMMM?? Mine continue to sit in a drawer, like some half-assed promise that I couldn't quite get myself to buy into.

Men always seem way more interested in those things, anyway. I wonder why.

Glad to hear everything is going well! Halfway there!

Anonymous said...

Thanks for the update, Alice. I had been counting off the weeks since you last posted. Still thinking of you as you make this incredible journey.

Alice said...

Just posted a comment on Tash's blog with a really heart felt thank you. Thanks so much to the anonymous Lucy as well. I'm so touched that you keep in touch. Thank so, so much. Alice