Friday, 6 June 2008

Amsterdam house boat

So this is a photograph of Amsterdam. It shows my husband and my son (making a cheeky face). In the background is the house boat which we stayed on. I've always dreamt of living on a house boat. Years ago I nearly bought one but lost my nerve. I felt sure that if we went to stay on a house boat then it would turn out to be damp / cramped / smelly / uncomfortable - and that would put an end to my fantasy. But no. It was wonderful and I'm now more determined than ever that I'll live on a house boat permanently some time. Of course, all this dashing around the place doing odd things is simply a distraction - and sometimes it doesn't work that well. But it's certainly better than sitting around at home refusing to answer the phone, or reply to any e-mails, which is what I'd be doing otherwise. I need another trip - now. But there's nothing planned. I feel ill all the time at the moment. My heart has been beating wildly ever since we had our bad news. By four o'clock in the afternoon I'm too tired to do anything. My eyes feel heavy all the time. How much longer is this going to last? I wish we could go back to Amsterdam and stay on the boat again.
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Tash said...

Beautiful. Think I could get 2 dogs and 2 cats on a houseboat?

sorry about feeling like yuk. You've probably had an awful lot of adrenaline coursing through your system that's finally leaving. Easier said than done, but try and give yourself a break -- take bath, get a massage. Thinking of you.

Honey said...

I'm considering primal scream therapy. I ended up screaming like a wild woman down the phone at bh today. Not that I think screaming at a person is a good idea not at all but something was released today. I had every reason to be furiously angry but screaming like an animal using the full power of my lungs it felt better than I could ever imagine.
I think we need to find a screming workshop or just go to the woods and scare the wild life.
it might just help.
the house boat looks wonderful x

Anonymous said...

It looks lovely, I hope you found some peace.
We have just learnt that we have huntingtons in the family and I am finding it hard to keep my eyes open too. Perhaps it's our bodies way of keeping us safe until we can think again without breaking down. I'm finding it hard to come to terms with the fact that there's so much unhappiness in the world.